Control

Ok, so yesterday I had one of those moments where you realize why the house organization has become such a problem. One of my issues is that I just can't let go and let someone else help with the organizing. I am the type of person that likes for the organizing to be done "right" more than quickly. My husband is more of a "quick" organizer. Mostly his organization consists of throwing things away without thinking too much about them. I, on the other hand, have to think every single thing through. If there is an item that I'm not sure what it belongs to, I set it aside and think about it until I can figure it out. My husband will just toss it in the garbage if it is not immediately evident as to where it belongs. This drives me crazy because then you end up with items with pieces missing. His solution to that - throw it away.

So, I find myself going through the garbage after every time he "cleans up" around the house. I know I should not do that, but I can't take that he doesn't think about things. Yesterday I peeked in the garbage while he was cleaning and found an entire sewing project that I was in the middle of working on in the trash. It just happened to be in a plastic Target bag, so he assumed it wasn't worth keeping. I was really grateful that I rescued my hard work from being thrown away, but this did not help my control issue with the home organization. It just confirmed that I need to make sure he is not throwing important things away. And it fueled my need to do it all myself, the way I want to do it. I feel this constant panic to get through everything quickly myself so he won't want to suddenly "help" me with it.

I gotta get through the house quick. So I don't have to feel like such a control freak.